I've always lived for the one on one

Trying to try, just to come undone

One thing I've seen through the spit and the lies

Small men try but live small lives

(Pre-chorus)

Moving away doesn't mean moving on

Wash it again 'til the stain is gone

I'm out of sight and out of mind

I'm an analog man in a digital time

(Chorus)

When did the heart lose its job to the mind?

When did the vain become one with the blind?

As the highway stretched out to the long, lonely night

And the distance to her took me out of the light

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

It's easy side up for every meal

Forget what you think and find what you feel

The color and shape and smell and the depth

I'll always remember, but right now I forget

(Chorus)

More than the loss

More than the fucking

Its more than the love

But less than the loving

Alone with You

lyrics by Josh Parda

music by Ethan Platz

Together, sweating, skin on skin

What you breathe I will take in

Giving you all I can

(And here we go again)

You came back to me again

Because you knew I would defend

Whenever you found sin

(And here we go again)

[You said goodbye

A thousand times

A thousand lies

Here we are again

The same damn day

And were still friends]

We've been here twice before

Do you still think I'm a bore?

Do you still think I'm a chore?

(Give into it again)

Found solace wherever you could

On empty although you felt full

But soon you'll see through the bull

(And then you'll come home again)

[Chorus]

Alone, now out comes the truth

Feeling love and your youth

Just feel like being used

(Feeling lonely again)

Love thinly veiling lust

And now it's Hell or bust

But when you blow off the dust

(You'll see where your heart belongs)

[You said goodbye

A thousand times

A thousand lies

Here we are again

A brand new day

But we're still friends]

Now that you're gone

lyrics by Jordon Murzyn and Josh Parda

music by Ethan Platz

Being alone always gets old

The memory full of the hate and the home

Forget what you heard, forget what you know

No savior on earth could fill in this hole

Now that you are gone

I can't get you out of my head

And I would die so that you could live instead

All of our things are not quite the same

But the old times they still havent changed

What do I do with the joy and the pain?

What do I do when the memory fades?

You took a part of me with you

And its a part I cant live without

I want you back so I can tell you without any doubt

How much I miss you

What made you think you could take her away from me?

Digital Blowout

lyrics by Josh Parda

music by Ethan Platz

The silent messages

Stir up the most rage

But this is the kind of book

Where I just cant turn the page

Breathing in and bleeding out

I see your sex has paid off well

Leave me here and leave me now

Or never drag me back through Hell

I stirred up your apathy

Time and time again

Turn to poor judgment

Your fine fair weathered friend

All the things left unsaid

Implications build for days

I just need to hold you

And you're a million miles away

The Feminine Mistake

lyrics by Josh Parda

music by Ethan Platz

It's another one

It's amazing

Growing up irresponsible and crazy

Bring the violence

Bring the lazy

Bring it home and leave it to the crazy

It's not what you wanted

It's what you asked for

Third and fourth tries

Whats the matter?

The years make you much shorter and fatter

Here it comes again

You've seen it before

It's everything you hated, and so much more

It's not what you wanted

It's what you asked for

I hear voices in the hall

If I've heard it once I've heard it all

Trying to make everything small

While razorblades and bullets call

A Lesson Unlearned

lyrics by Josh Parda and the Murz-dawg (that's what he makes us call him)

music by Ethan

I've always tried to want what you wanted

And I didn't mind all the shit that you flaunted

Lonely and hungry is all that you gave me

But I'm not the kind who ever could save me

You claim to be sorry but I'll never know

Why you think you've changed and I havent grown

Playing adult whenever it suits you

But the shoe doesnt fit and thats where I lose you

(Whatever your dreams are

I will always be there

Saving your life

Just in time for suicide

Building the bridges

Just for you to burn them

Teaching you lessons

And you don't even learn them)

Leading me on in your wrong direction

But I'm still in love with your imperfection

Leading me on, and leading me nowhere

Don't know when I became the kind who would care

(Pre-Chorus)

[Independence is just a myth

But you can't get it out of your head

Another man-dependent feminist

And I believe everything I said

Cause I love you to the pain

And you can try but I'll never break

I may be standing on the wrong corner

But thats something I'll never fake]

Now passing out and still barely passing

I've always been right here for the asking

The argument proves magic's in the making

But I'm not the kind who was here for the taking

(Pre-Chorus)

[Chorus]

Starting Over

Lyrics and Music by Jordon Murzyn

When you're feeling abandoned
And the World's left you for dead
What consolation can you get?

I'm better off alone
Cause everything good will go
And leave me a broken man
It's hard as hell to watch you go
Starting all over again

There is no satisfaction
In anything I do
So I take another shot
And I melt away from you

I'm better off alone
Cause everything good will go
And leave me a broken man
It's hard as hell to watch you go
Starting all over again

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